Neon Streaks and Swirls (In That River of Holy Black Cum)

by Kuma, AKA...

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You tied me up with Christmas lights Whispered “what a pretty sight” I’m your little constellation Shaking with anticipation They could never understand They think they know who I am But it’s too dark in here to see The horror bursting at my seams Cause I am the sick twist of your fate Your little hell, your fall from grace I was the moonlight in your eyes Now just the dead-end of your life Blonde hair, pink lips, You rock your hips Those silver eyes that satisfy Don’t stop, don’t stop I need those heartless frames Like crashing waves tonight Can’t breathe, can’t cry Can’t close my eyes Those photographs eat me alive Blonde hair, pink lips That speak in tongues That cast a spell the day you died Holla back baby, tell me that you hate me Promise that you’ll kill me ‘cause you know you can’t save me Wrap that bullet in a pretty pink bow You were such a slut for the bloodlust (whoa) Now I got a gang of dirty dolled up punks Broken little freaks that just saw too much Who could take the heat when it’s all so fucked When it’s all so bleak, when it’s all so messed up Blonde hair, pink lips, You rock your hips Those silver eyes that satisfy Don’t stop, don’t stop I need those heartless frames Like crashing waves tonight Can’t breathe, can’t cry Can’t close my eyes Those photographs eat me alive Blonde hair, pink lips That speak in tongues That cast a spell the day you—
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I was holding onto something but I can’t remember now In the darkness it was easier to find the light somehow They’re so perfect in the twilight, stars reflecting off their skin All of us are joined together in this perfect little sin Oh my fucking god Please don’t ever fucking stop Keep that holy river flowing Through my veins until I’m gone Keep that holy river pumping Till my spark is overcome
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I was so many things but now im more Liars cheaters believers and dirty whores The kinda shit that I did and was done to me Fragments swirling around in a dark black sea And now im scared cause im headed home Where the people roam, where it’s skin and bones And I hope so bad that I find someone Who wont see my body and want to throw up Cause the way it moves aint a thing I choose I’m a freak of nature, a freak to you And a freak to everyone else who doesn’t know the sick dark truth That someday this’ll be you Someday this’ll be you and a bunch of other scared motherfuckers too All mashed together, you won’t know what to do So you’ll flail and scream and cry but none of it’s going to help you
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Cyan 02:39
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That one bullet could’ve managed Just the right amount of damage And it could’ve been any fucking one of you But you fucks will never learn Never know the things you burn While I live and die in the shadows you subsume A flurry of ashes in your eyes A mess to clean, a dotted line A flurry of ashes in your eyes I hope, I pray to scratch the surface of your mind
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Beauty queens in shopping malls Are waiting at my beckon call Till I shoot hot magic all across the wall And it gets me so high that I’m scared I’ll fall
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Cosmic pigs, cosmic pigs We are slop for the abyss Cosmic pigs, cosmic pigs Blue Starlet, let’s start some shit We can break the cycle We can leave this place behind I’m so scared but when you’re with me I think I could be alright You know there’s a better fate Reach out before it’s too late Take my paw and leap with faith Into darkness without hate You know there’s a better way I see colors through the black We’ll never come back this way Tread into darkness, fearless Cosmic pigs, cosmic pigs You won’t last forever Cosmic pigs, cosmic pigs Rhinestone Skies, we dream together
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Harlequin 01:42
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gods are just like movie stars burning through your brain in hot new cars love you like a fan but that’s all you are buried in their thoughts like a hazy static image on a VCR till you kidnap them and make them see that they’re everything you ever even wanted to be then you cut open their flesh to see what color they bleed and they scream, and they scream, and they scream till you’re happy
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Amethyst 01:52
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Im not a monster baby but I’m not a normal bear Sometimes I just can’t help but take a sec to stop and stare Cause behind my button eyes im dressing up my little dolls And playing out scenarios that some of you would call Fucked up, fucked up, so disgusting Warped and sick and twisted of me To ever even think some fucking shit like that Like you’d never seen a creature with a heart so black It’s okay, you hate me, please don’t stop You’re making me so fucking hot You think im scary baby but you haven’t seen the worst If I showed you just a glimpse inside you’d be forever cursed Which is why you’re not invited to my secret bedroom fashion show Cause unlike all my besties you can’t handle all these tentacles So go tell all your friends Go tell em all how it’s so Fucked up, fucked up, so disgusting Warped and sick and twisted of me To ever even think some fucking shit like that Like you’d never seen a creature with a heart so black It’s okay, you hate me, please don’t stop You’re making me so fucking- It’s okay, you hate me, please don’t stop You’re making me so fucking hot You’re making me so fucking hot We scream so loud they call the cops It’s a slaughterhouse, we eat them up Pigs for dinner, drink the blood! Pigs for dinner, drink the blood! Fucked up, fucked up, so disgusting Warped and sick and twisted of me To ever even think some fucking shit like that Like you’d never seen a creature with a heart so black Fucked up, fucked up, so disgusting Warped and sick and twisted of me To ever even think some fucking shit like that Like you’d never seen a creature with a heart so black It’s okay, you hate me, please don’t stop You’re making me so fucking- It’s okay, you hate me, please don’t stop You’re making me so fucking hot
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I lost my identity broke down like the ground beneath me I'm always making things up in my mind making myself feel better killing the time but I cant kill my brain i was tiny before i could get there again i could starve myself until my clothes are too big i used to not cry i would hold it all in ive done it before i could do it again no i cant let it go i have trouble being alone
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INSIDE YOU 02:49
I don’t wanna worry anymore Life is such a fucking bore I’m just desperate to explore In the dark I’m just a whore I just wanna keep your secrets I don’t want your heart, I need it Love is real cause I believe it I’m inside you, can you feel it? I’m inside you can you feel it? Every part of you is screaming! Ooh ooh ooh Fuck you till you’re barely breathing Cum so hard I lose all feeling Ooh ooh ooh Open up and let me in Take me deep beneath your skin Let me get lost in those eyes Till our sparks fucking harmonize I’m so scared that I could cry Seen too much with button eyes Hold onto me, I can fly Far away from all the lies Can’t believe this is my life I’m the monster that they like All these girls and they’re so tight Boys that handle me just right But I’m scared they’ll never understand Even if they really think they can It’s all buried deep inside my head It’s alive when I’m asleep in bed It’s a part of me until I’m dead This is why I wanna make more friends So I can share all of my pain with them Maybe then I’ll learn to live again I hope one day that they can understand Yeah, I believe that they could understand I’m inside you can you feel it? Every part of you is screaming! Ooh ooh ooh Fuck you till you’re barely breathing Cum so hard I lose all feeling Ooh ooh ooh Open up and let me in Take me deep beneath your skin Let me get lost in those eyes Till our sparks fucking harmonize
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I was a little girl with my smooth stomach buried in the carpet in front of the television set And my feet in the air gently to and fro like metronomes and my eyes glistening wet And at the time I didn’t know why but I was happy and sad and scared and stupid And hoping that some day, in some ephemeral state of time and place I could get used to it How they want you to be what they want you to be And that’s all they see, fuckin all they see It’s all about those eyes, yeah, from those eyes I just can’t hide I have seen a million stories told by people all too terrified To hold me tight and say it’s alright in front of all the gruesome sights So as I sing this song under my spotlight, I’ll keep it nasty as I fuckin like I think things could be okay, but they just don’t see shit that way It’s all what-ifs, it’s all should-be’s, it’s all old statues safe and holy They don’t think that love exists, they think love is just a bedtime story But love is where the contradiction finds a peace beyond their fictions And if they were here tonight, I’d say everything just right I would paint a perfect picture at the center of their minds And when they’d shrug it off, I’d scream into their ears When they’d shrug it off, I’d scream loud and clear “Fine, go crawl in your hole at night, while the freaks soak up all of your moonlight While we dance beneath the rhinestone skies and sing your favorite lullabies Without you, yeah, without you, yeah, without you, yeah, yeah, yeah We’ll sing and dance like Hollywood is calling… baby, we’re not calling back!”

about

Kuma has a spinal zipper, a zipper on their back. what's inside? most teddy bears have a bunch of cotton stuffed inside, but Kuma's not like most teddy bears. so you unzip the zipper, and what do you find?

tentacles, for one. long, slippery tentacles that long to be inside you-- where they can know you, can understand you, can fill you with something sticky, black, and divine.

aside from the tentacles, there's this endless sadness made of loathings and longings and ugly, ugly pain. memory fragments that make them sick with regret, others that make them long to be something they can't anymore-- why can't they be a person anymore? stuck in this body they'll never understand... constantly recoiling at the way all their body parts look and move and feel...

but beyond all that, there's stuff you can glimpse deep in that murky abyss of darkness-- spots where beauty glimmers through. little shimmers of color that bloom when Kuma makes new friends, when they experience exciting new things, when they find those moments where the truth becomes something more than that cold nether of fear in their wake.

I hope you see every bit of it.

Every bit, and I hope that once you've looked inside Kuma...

and once Kuma's looked inside you...

I hope you both feel pretty.

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P.S. some stuff ab makin this thing!1!!

this album is part of Rhinestone Skies! that's my universe, I write books and draw art (including this album cover yeah i drew that shit) and make fckn music like this-- and all of it is a part of Rhinestone Skies!!!

feel free 2 ask me ab it!! none of the books r published yet cuz im still figuring all that stuff out, but like it's all in the workss. ive written 2 books so far, and i got plans to write lots more!!!

now that that's outta the way, ATOMIC SAVES THE WORLD!!! provided some of the sounds that recur on the album, she is amazing and makes great stuff that u shld check out :3

SECONDLY, omg my friend Soy is featured on a track, she doesn't hav any music online yet but she def will, especially cuz im starting a band w her and we're gonna come up w a design for her character and stuff it's going to be the cutest thing ever when u see us hangin out on an album cover together ANYWAY SO YEAH THAT

lastly, i just wanna say if you're seeing this that I love you so much and the fact that u bothered to even come to this page n check out my album means more than you'll evr know.

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released August 26, 2023

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welcome to Rhinestone Skies, where Kuma is making weird scene music ab being a freak w their freak friends in the fucked up lovecraftian nightmare that is their existence.

So like if that sounds cool... pls vibe :3

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